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Taste of a deeper more exhilarating reality

Posted on: Thursday, October 09, 2014  

I just finished reading Linda Kohanov's "Riding between the worlds". 

So many amazing insights throughout her writing!  "..in peaceful acceptance of what is, as he or she also begins to adopt a co-creative, non-controlling view of what's possible."

..."In The Field, Lynne McTaggart talks about a researcher named William Braud, a behavioral psychologist with a penchant for "white crows," William James's term for scientific anomalies - those things that don't quite fit, "assumptions that could be turned askew."  What Braud found, among other things, was that people could influence the laws of nature as readily as they could influence a random event generator.  But it only seemed to work "when he used gentle wishing, rather than intense willing or striving.  It was like trying to will yourself to sleep; the harder you try, the more you interfere with the process.  It seemed to Braud that humans operated on two levels - the hard, motivated striving of the world and the relaxed, passive, receptive world of The Field - and the two seemed incompatible."

"Horses are experts at straddling these twin realities.  The more time I spend with them, the more I feel the music of total integration rumbling from the depths.  They're tuning me to sing a new song, gently wishing me toward an expanded view of what's possible."

"We're all riding between the worlds right now, shifting, clumsily at times, between freedom and captivity, spirit and nature, mind and heart.  Yet I believe that someday, if more people are willing to take counsel from their four-legged friends, human consciousness will embrace these paradoxes and expand beyond them. 

Then, there will be no separation."- Linda Kohanov  http://www.taoofequus.com

...and i believe our hearts, delicate as the wings of butterflies, will cease to bruise so quickly at the hands of each other.

thanks for reading,
peace & blessings


textures of life

Posted on: Thursday, October 09, 2014  

"...return to feeling the textures of life." -Ackerman

I have recently begun reading 3! books.  All very interesting and worth checking out.  "A natural history of the senses" by Diane Ackerman, "Outliers" by Malcolm Gladwell and "Lovers for life" by Daniel Ellenberg & Judith Bell.

"It is both our panic and our privilege to be mortal and sense-full.  We live on the leash of our senses.  Although they enlarge us, they also limit and restrain us, but how beautifully...

We need to return to feeling the textures of life.

To begin to understand the gorgeous fever that is consciousness, we must try to understand the senses--how they evolved, how they can be extended, what their limits are, to which ones we have attached taboos, and what they can teach us about the ravishing world we have the privilege to inhabit."  -Ackerman

This November 21st will mark my 11th year as a massage therapist.  The body is amazing!  It is endlessly resourceful in helping us out.  We shut ourselves down in endless ways.  Blocking our emotions and forcing ourselves on.  Our minds go on "disconnect" from our bodies and we invariably wake up one day hurting, wondering why.

I have found ways to continually advance in my own health through the years.  Books like these and many others have provided wonderful insights along the way.

"What stops people from being willing to try new possibilities?  The answer is FEAR(False Evidence Appearing Real).  Please don't let your fear stop you from getting what you most want." ~Ellenberg & Bell

"No one who can rise before dawn three hundred sixty days a year fails to make his family rich." -Chinese peasant proverb gathered by historian David Arkush quoted by Gladwell in "Outliers"

Happy Reading,


The world has changed

Posted on: Wednesday, October 08, 2014  

As I near the completion of my 14th year practicing deep tissue massage and CranioSacral therapies I look back with gratitude and forward with delight!

I completed the installation of my first photography exhibit at Fair Bean Coffee on S. 1st here in Austin, Texas. Big party 9/14/12 5-7:30pm...you are welcome! Big thanks to the owner Andres Salvador and Kathi Herrin, owner of Real Gallery. What a wonderful feeling! Hosting the open mic there each Friday is a labor of love and a lot of fun work. Seeing the reactions of the artists as they view their images on the walls for the first time is a unique and lovely experience!

As always I am reading several amazing books by some of my favorite authors. "The World Has Changed" Conversations with Alice Walker is deeply touching. Her poem: "The World Has Changed" captures a way of life I walked through over the past few years. "Wake up & smell the possibility. The world has changed: It did not change without your prayers without your faith without your determination to believe in liberation and kindness; without your dancing through the years that had no beat.......without your fierce love of self & Cosmos it did not change without your strength. ....Wake up! Give yourself the gift of a new day. ....This does not mean you were never hurt. The world has changed: Rise! Yes & Shine! Resist the siren call of disbelief. The world has changed: Don't let yourself remain asleep to it." -Alice Walker

It has and in so many ways. The seesaw ride of downsizing from 900 to 400 square feet and establishing a new business address has kept me busy! I am enjoying my Medical Arts office location. I also began a position with Seton Cove in July. Thrilled to be working with such intentional, kind folks there. Massaging the moms after they give birth at Seton Southwest is truly one of the highlights of my week! Great program they have going on there.

Lately I've been amazed by the introductions to books that I am delving into. Clarissa Pinkola Estes wrote this for the "Tales of the Brothers Grimm": 'The Medicine of the Tales' Though fairy tales end after ten pages, our lives do not. We are multi-volume sets. In our lives, even though one episode might culminate in a crash and burn, there is always another episode awaiting us, and then another. There are always more opportunities to get it right, to fashion our lives in the ways we soulfully deserve. Do not waste your time hating a failure. Failure is every tale's essence. As we listen to these ancient messages, we learn about deteriorative patterns, and we learn to go on with the strength of one who senses the traps, cages, and baits before we are upon them, or caught in them."

As I walk towards new ways of being and expressing I think of this and realize that I am adding a wider spectrum of color to my world. On September 14, 2012 8:30-10:00 p.m. I am hosting a Songwriter's Circle at Tom's Tabooley on Guadalupe. The music room there is ideal for performance, listening and conversation about creativity. Very much looking forward to seeing the circle grow!

So, I will close this entry with words from John O'Donohue's "To Bless the Space Between Us" -A Book of Blessings. His writing is so very beautiful. In my life I have walked away from so much. I feel now that I am walking towards the future rather than running away from the past.

'Beyond Endings' The nature of calendar time is linear; it is made up of durations that begin and end. The Celtic imagination always sensed that beneath time there was eternal depth. This offers us a completely different way of relating to time. It relieves time of the finality of ending. While something may come to an ending on the surface of time, it's presence, meaning, and effect continue to be held and integrated into the eternal. This is how spirit unfolds and deepens. In this sense, eternal time is intimate; it is where the unfolding narrative of individual life is gathered and woven. Eternal life is eternal memory; therefore, it becomes possible to imagine a realm beyond endings where all that has unfolded is not canceled or lost, but where the spirit-depths of it are already arriving home. -John O'Donohue

I hope this post finds you well and creative!

All the best, Amy